Welcome to my AuDHD page!

I've always known I was different. When I was very young I heard adults telling my parents things like 'Oh, they'll grow out of it', 'I guess they're just shy', 'It's scary meeting new people', etc.
Whatever they could think of to assure my parents that whatever made me different was surely going to go away as I got older. Except it didn't.

The thing with AuDHD, or a combination Autism and ADHD, is that the one can mask the other and vice versa. That meant that my entire life I've always been an oddball but not odd enough to get my parents to take me to see a child psychologist.
My parents weren't fans of taking us to medical professionals anyway. I'm 100% sure my older sibling is on the spectrum, noticeably so, but my parents preferred to look the other way. That left my older sibling struggling terribly in school and as an adult. To this day they have not gone to get a diagnosis either.

Anyway, I was bullied all throughout my school 'career' and also in all of the jobs I've had since then. Having been told by multiple people that I was weird and unlikeable, I had assumed it must just be me. Something about me was just wrong and no matter how much I tried to adjust my behavior and presentation it never seemed to get it 'right' enough to evade negativity.

My journey?

So this page is new and meant purely for me to talk about my AuDHD, why I think I have AuDHD and not ADHD or Autism by itself, and if I'm ever going to get diagnosed. So enjoy, I guess lol